Friday, August 31, 2012

Just A Little Pissed.......

I have not written on this blog in a very long time.  A couple of friends recently commented that they missed it and found it to be quite humorous. In reading through the blog posts last March my own take  was that yes, sometimes it was in fact funny but the glaring hard core fact that I could not run away from was how ANGRY all the posts really were.

The thing is I have never considered myself an angry person but there I was…. staring at my own angry words. I was mortified…..So I stopped blogging. I gave myself some time to sit with the fact that I was an angry person. This was rather devastating to me because most people that know me would not use the word angry in relation to me. Nor would I. But there I was……in my own words. Me…the woman, who for the last 26 years, has had spirituality as her obsessive past time. Me…Miss Namaste…the yoga instructor…..who deep down is just full on pissed off. Mortified I tell ya, completely mortified.

Because I was having such a hard time struggling with the fact that I was pissed off deep down inside, my friend Wendy turned me on to this Buddhist Monk that was totally pissed off too. He helped me understand that anger too is part of spiritual awakening. Well thank GOD. Here is a link to the article about The Angry Monk.

 So I decided it would be okay to embrace my anger as it may be teaching me something and working with it may help to diminish it. So I am back and hopefully I can learn something from it and maybe you can too. What do they say…awareness is the first step? So hopefully I can learn to be less angry but still funny and heal whatever is inside me that I am so pissed about. But the blog is about living my life based on answers from a Magic 8 Ball. I will still utilize the Magic 8 Ball only I think it might make a good gauge as to my anger levels. So for now that is how I will access my anger levels. So glad you are along for the ride. Namaste Bitches!!! Just kidding…well….Sorta.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

The Skin Crawls

Today is February 1st 2012. I know that I am dreading the months ahead like most all Americans because this is an election year. The thought of having to stomach the never ending negative campaigns is enough to make you want to throw your TV out the window or at least have your own personal “Network” moment. For those of you too young to remember the movie “Network”…… it on Netflix.

My personal opinion is that we should take a page from American Idol and have a show where people get to audition to be a candidate. We go thru the exact same process and ultimately it goes down to the American people ….whoever is left standing becomes a candidate. It can’t be worse than the crop we have right now.

I should also tell you that I am a registered Independent. I have no party affiliation…. I don’t necessarily agree with the politics of either the democrats or the republicans. I will also be the first to tell you that I despise politics. No…. I effing hate it. I hate it in the work place and in the state house, the congress, the senate and the White House. MY motto I take from Rodney King after he had the shit beat out of him in the streets of L.A. when he said “Can’t we all just get along.” I mean really…….is it that hard?

Ok so here’s the thing……………Mitt Romney makes my skin crawl. Seriously…..I don’t know why……… but he makes my skin crawl and from being on this planet for far too many years than I will admit to…I know one thing. When I get the skin crawl feeling….even if I don’t know why…. There is ALWAYS a very good reason and on this I am never wrong. So please stupid people…my gut is telling me he is a very very bad dude…admittedly I have no idea why I am reacting this way but my skin crawly feeling is enough to tell me run fast and furiously away from this guy.

So here is the Magic 8 Ball question…..maybe of the year….. Magic 8 Ball……… Would electing Mitt Romney be detrimental to the United States? Shakey…………. Shakey………………. Shakey……………… and the answer is: It Is Decidedly So. See…….the Skin Crawly Feeling NEVER fails me!

Saturday, January 21, 2012

The Supper Club

I know I stated on here before that the boyfriend and I have broken up. So in an effort to “get back out there” I am trying different things to meet people. My favorite is going to the designated Pittsburg Steelers bar and watching Steelers games. I have done that a few times but I have to be in the mood and in the right head space to walk into a bar alone and sit and watch a game by myself. People are usually pretty good about talking to you, but, you do have to be prepared to just sit by yourself at the bar if no one will strike up a conversation with you and that requires being in a certain head space.

I do not want to try internet dating again. I tried that before the x-boyfriend and it was a nightmare. I know, I know, I have heard all the stories about people meeting and getting together on the internet and then getting married but the times I have met people they don’t look like their pictures, they say they don’t smoke then show up smelling like a smoking lounge from my high school days. So I am taking a different approach to it.

A friend of mine suggested we attend a singles supper club. It’s a group of people that get together and meet at different restaurants to check out the food. I think it is a great concept. We get there and it is a pretty large group of people. There are 6 women to every man there which is to be expected. The thing I like about it is you get to check out different restaurants that you might not even know about. My friend and I sit down next to a gentlemen who seems to be the best of the male species in the group and another gentlemen joins us. We sit at the end of the table and I am forced to sit next to KC, very nice gentlemen with absolutely no people skills and in desperate need of a make over to get him up to the year 2012. He is sporting a hairdo from the 1970’s. I feel bad for him because no one will talk to him so I engage him in conversation. It was like pulling teeth to talk to him. He is a very sweet man just does not have any viable social skills to engage in conversation.

The food was half way decent and my work friend and I enjoyed our time out together so it was not a wasted night and the concept is such that we shall probably do this again.

A few weeks have passed and they have a new restaurant picked. This time it is by my house but I have never been there so we decide to go once again. My work friend got there before me and failed to call or text to give me warning of what I was walking into. I barely got into the place before KC was at my side and stayed there all night. Which brings me to the Magic 8 Ball Question.

I felt sorry for the guy cause he is a bit weird and absolutely no one would engage him in conversation. In talking to him I did learn that he was a very sweet man with a steady job. He just had no social skills. I was brought up to always be nice to people and to “do unto others as you would want done unto you”. ….which is the reason I decided to engage in a conversation with him. If I was out in a group I would want someone to come over and talk to me. I would not want to sit there with 30 people and feel left out and isolated. The end result of me being nice is that now when I go to these supper clubs I have him stuck to my left side from the moment I walk in to the moment I leave. Which brings us to the Magic 8 Ball Question. Should I be like everyone else and ignore him? Magic 8 Ball Answer is: My reply is no.

That makes me feel better because despite the fact that he is annoying I still feel like if no one else is going to extend their hand to this man, there should be at least one person who does and I guess that will just have to be me. I would want someone to do that for me if the tables were turned.